May 12 2019 … I was coming home after my sophomore year of college.. in a depression, failing grades, falling out friendships, and low self esteem.
I wish I could say “fast forward to now” but it’s those in between moments that really build a person. I weighed about 176 lbs and food was my comfort. I ate to keep busy or to distract myself, using going out to eat with friends as an excuse to distance farther from life; this is the reality.
I finally said “enough, I’ve got to change.”
My biggest lesson; physicality only changes with mentality. So if my outlook wasn’t changing neither would my body.
Going into this I knew basics; changing my diet, cardio and simple workouts needed to be done.
I only had myself weighed due to a recent doctors appointment however from then on I relied on progress photos (motivated so much better than a stupid number). I started by changing things up; I was waking up at 5 am to get up and walk for 2 hours each morning. I’ve never been a morning person but I noticed how much more I began to appreciate life; that was my me time.
I changed my diet around no unnecessary sugars (yes, to this day I’m still drinking my iced coffee black) I treat myself every once in awhile but I use portion control. highly recommend using smaller plates as motivation. No going back for seconds and snacks consist of fruits. I don’t necessarily count calories however I do watch and limit what I put in my body.
Feeling empowered, and loving my body so much and my mental health was better than ever (163 lbs by this point)…I started to get lazy (it happens) .. no more waking up, no more getting to sleep by 8:30 pm. My life was like a light switch. But I get we deserve some off time to rest? It’s good for us? However, I was using my “rest” once again as an excuse.
I’ve always fluctuated with my weight whether that was due to lack of motivation or my mindset to just normal changes. I’m so proud of myself and I typically overthink these things, but I slipped up and it’s totally normal!!
If this is your current situation you’re stuck in, your motivation should be; start over! tomorrow is a new day! Don’t over compensate for “lost time”, just get back to that schedule.
I’m by no means a physical trainer or doctor.. I’m an average person trying to stay healthy (on a budget). Use every resource around you. I bought a $7 yoga mat so I could do workouts in the comfort of my own home. I walk my neighborhood!! (no need for that expensive gym membership just for a treadmill !!)
Try and try and try again. Push yourself to limits you thought were never possible. I still am.
As a Coastal Carolina University student I originally went in with the focus on marine science, now focusing on ‘journalism’/communications (still planning to incorporate marine science in my writing).
At 20 years old I never thought I’d see the day where I’d publicly put myself out in this big, beautiful world of writing. I’ve always been a private person however, when it came to my writing I felt comfortable enough to share.
From the age of 9 I knew that I always wanted to be a shark biologist this suddenly changed once I realized, that the content was not exactly what I wanted to focus on, and I was losing passion and interest, in the field it’s a different story but break it down and it’s much more complex than it seems at surface level.
I completed 2 years of CCU in the marine science program until I knew I needed to change my major (my best skills are in communication, quick thinking/responding, and writing).
I still have the love of marine science however, knowing I can enter the field by using my strengths gave me so much more hope. My current plan is to graduate with a degree in English, and hopefully work for a non profit.
I also write for the online magazine HerCampus; check out my articles here.
Aside from the research portion; you’ll find my blog will cover lifestyle. (Honestly, using this blog mainly for hobby reasons because I love writing).